Hi guys, I back at this place after 8 months. Made a few changes to the layout so I can start afresh, sort of. I've been saying that I wanted to blog every time I come back here but I never kept that promise. This time I'm going to try again. However, it is a little different this time as rather than just writing about daily affairs or random thoughts, I want to post some content that expresses myself. It's hard to explain so just wait and see! 

No I'm not trying to be an influencer. Cause afterall, I'm going to still keep this really personal. It's just a platform for me to find and express myself such as finding my colours and style. 

But why do I want to do this? When 2017 started, I fell into this phase of "who the hell am I, and what am I doing with my life". I started questioning about going to school, doing my work, projects, just every routine I've been doing for the past few years. Were they worth it? At that point of time, I felt that I have lost my purpose in life. I didn't see the point of studying (a shocker for those who know me as I'm quite the good, studious girl), I didn't see the point of working so hard. I even questioned did I pick the right degree. When I came home after classes, I felt drained and then when I see the pile of work, I feel even worse.

I wanted to give up on myself.

I cried before going to bed because of the pressure and yet I had no one to talk to. Once again, my protective instincts won't allow me to trouble anyone else with my burdens. Y2S2 was the worst semester of the four (including it) I have in uni, I have never felt so so so tired before. The thing is, I don't mind being physically tired because I can catch up with sleep once the semester is over. But emotionally? Oh my, I'm doomed. 

With that being said, my sophomore year is finally over!! It is another 4 months long break, so instead of wasting time by being a sloth, I'm going to do an internship (it is still in the tbc stage) and spend some time on these things:

I hope this will be an interesting summer! 

Hi guys, I back at this place after 8 months. Made a few changes to the layout so I can start afresh, sort of. I've been saying that I wanted to blog every time I come back here but I never kept that promise. This time I'm going to try again. However, it is a little different this time as rather than just writing about daily affairs or random thoughts, I want to post some content that expresses myself. It's hard to explain so just wait and see! 

No I'm not trying to be an influencer. Cause afterall, I'm going to still keep this really personal. It's just a platform for me to find and express myself such as finding my colours and style. 

But why do I want to do this? When 2017 started, I fell into this phase of "who the hell am I, and what am I doing with my life". I started questioning about going to school, doing my work, projects, just every routine I've been doing for the past few years. Were they worth it? At that point of time, I felt that I have lost my purpose in life. I didn't see the point of studying (a shocker for those who know me as I'm quite the good, studious girl), I didn't see the point of working so hard. I even questioned did I pick the right degree. When I came home after classes, I felt drained and then when I see the pile of work, I feel even worse.

I wanted to give up on myself.

I cried before going to bed because of the pressure and yet I had no one to talk to. Once again, my protective instincts won't allow me to trouble anyone else with my burdens. Y2S2 was the worst semester of the four (including it) I have in uni, I have never felt so so so tired before. The thing is, I don't mind being physically tired because I can catch up with sleep once the semester is over. But emotionally? Oh my, I'm doomed. 

With that being said, my sophomore year is finally over!! It is another 4 months long break, so instead of wasting time by being a sloth, I'm going to do an internship (it is still in the tbc stage) and spend some time on these things:

I hope this will be an interesting summer!